This is Not a Test - Courtney Summers Review to come in a while! Just need to study first. ;) for now I've got one word for this book: DEPRESSING

What made this book great and one of my favorites is that it grabs on to your heart and squeezes it until it hurts. While reading the book, the plot haunted and made me feel depressed at the same time. Just imagine living in a world full of zombies without your family and feeling hopeless, not seeing the point of your existence anymore. The teens here were broken into individuals whose survival modes are on. Because if I were them, I'd feel something break inside of me too when thrown in the same situation.

This is my first Courtney Summers book and I must say I'm not disappointed because I did enjoy the book in a depressing way. The book made me feel something towards it, it evoked feelings from me and such is an indication of a well-written book!

The thing no one tells you about surviving, about the mere act of holding out, is how many hours are nothing because nothing happens. They also don’t tell you about how you can share your deepest secrets with someone, kiss them, and the next hour it’s like there’s nothing between you because not everything can mean something all the time or you’d be crushed under the weight of it. They don’t tell you how you will float through days. You autopilot, here but not really here, sleepwalking, and then every so often you are awake.

“She always said I’d die without her and she left anyway.”
“But you didn’t die,” he says. “I did,” I say. “I’m just waiting for the rest of me to catch up.”

He presses his lips against the side of my mouth and my heart recoils because for all its gentleness, it hurts.

For me this was a heart wrenching (yup, not just breaking. It's more on the wrenching side) read which I still ended up loving. The lack ofone star was due to the ending. I actually thought it was a good ending but it still frustrated me! Because I wanted my HEA! I always want the HEA awaiting the characters but it didn't come :( and I was left wonderin and wondering and wondering.... Until I have to stop tinking about it because I know I will never find my Happily Ever After *sigh*. Ooooh you're good Ms. Summers!!!! You got me there. And so from now on, I'm watching you!!! :))))

To sum it up, my heart ahed for.....
Cary because he was such a great leader and I am hoping the best for him. I'm hoping so much, it actually hurts :(
Harrison because even if he was a crybaby I think he was the bravest in the end.
Trace because even if he was a jerk and a dick to Cary, he is still a loving and caring brother to Grace. And his end was just a tragedy expected but still..... I can't accept it. But I guess understandable because in a dystopian world full of zombies, who wouldn't go nuts?!
Grace because her end wasn't exactly how I expected it to be. But I guess it's better for her that way.
Rhys because I think he's the one who has the most sanity left despite what happened to him. He was so together I'd feel safe if ever I'd be with someone like him in a zombie infested world.
And lastly, Sloane because her life was no good may it be before the end of the world and duh, most likely even after. So with this, I only hope that Sloane found the hope to live even just for Rhys. Because if she's going to continue beng suicidal, atleast leave Rhys out of it.

So there.... Even if there'll be no book 2 Id understand and wouldn't love ths book any less. If there would be book 2 then great! Or not. Or whatever. So if you want to feel depressed in a good way (is such feeling possible?) read TINA T. You'll get what I mean once you read this :)