Eat, Sleep, Read

Again the story ended at a cliffhanger. The torture never ends!! Atleast I'd only have to wait for months for the next installment and the cliffhanger was somehow bearable. I am now moving to TEAM AIDEN! Yay! Maybe it's because the book focused more on their relationship. I loved reading the book I enjoyed every page of it but not enough to make mo go crazy for days because I'm already done with it. So yeah, still my favorite series evahhhh. Can't wait for the next book!

It was okay. Not too bad nor too good for me to gush over. Just.... Meh. Kinda sad I didn't enjoy the last installment. Maybe I'm too old for this kind of books? Hmm?

I NEED this book like stoners need cocaine. Seriously. It has a COVER and a BLURB.

hyperventilates...
hyperventilates...
hyperventilates...



I was really really hoping to love this one but *le sigh* sadly I didn't :( This is just like your typical NA romance about two bestfriends, nothing new really :(

3.5 rounded up to 4... It creeped me out on the first part but the book isn't that remarkable. Didn't hook me up. It was... Okay, I guess.

It was..... Meh. It was not that compelling nor was it an awful read as well.

WARNING: This is an informal review. I swear, reading this book will be the most life changing thing you will ever do in the span of your life. You won't freaking regret picking up this book, take my word for it. This is just my lame attempt of appeasing myself, calming my emotions down and trying to get over this book. Because that's just how I am. When I come across an awe-inspiring book I tend to not dwell too much on it and move on as fast as I could because there's no point in gushing over something that I've already read. And sometimes what's done is done and we just have to accept it. So now I'm in stage one.... Denial.... In denial that I have encountered this masterpiece and that I am done reading and devouring every single page of it. So you've been warned.. some thoughts may be repetitive, unoriginal, jumbled, incoherent and cliche... but it is 100% truth.



You know what? Nothing beats the feeling of finding a book worth reading more than anything else. its like finding a needle out of a haystack, or finding the best looking cardigan hidden beneath all those pile of clothes in a thrift store! I just want to hold on to this book and keep it like my own secret. Yes... like my OWN SECRET. It needs to be shared so that it gets the attention I know it deserves but then it also feels like this book must be shared to those who are only DESERVING to be graced with its greatness. Amazing books like this needs to be shared to people who are ACTUALLY worthy of reading such!!! And I'd hate for it to become a bandwagon or for people who don't really read PRETEND to understand the depth this book offers.

Now this... This book.... I have no definite words to describe how I'm feeling about this book right now. Just that I've found in this book what I think is lacking from all the other books I think I love until I've read this one. Now I'm writing this review more to appease myself and the roller coaster of emotions it has put me through than to encourage everyone to read it and rather than to please the author. This book did not receive so much buzz which I think it should have and right now I'm still wondering why it hasn't?! Because I've been totally blind sided by this one!!! I dived into this book without really having any expectations and a wee bit skeptical and also without trying to decode what it's blurb is all about. Because all through out the book I kept on being hit with loads of surprises that just made me want to go on. Until I loved every single one of the characters no matter how messed up and fucked up they may have been. No matter how self-destructive and self-loathing they were, it didn't stop me from wanting to be dragged deeper into their world. The emotions were so real on so many levels it made me want to cry and giggle at the same time!! There were a lot of what the fuck moments during the climax but at the end it still made you want to forgive them for fucking up. At the start I keep thinking why there were a lot of words... because there really were A LOT of them. Every page is filled up and there was no space left unfilled with words. I thought the author was being very wordy, but even before I'm halfway through I'm enjoying every single word I'm reading and if it's even possible for the author to write more words for every single thing that has been happening, I would no doubt be eating it up. And even their term of endearment does not bother me by one bit!!! IT REALLY FREAKING DIDN'T. Had such term of endearment came up on books with shit load of cheesyness, I would have gagged!! But never had I once cringed whenever Josh would call Nastya his SUNSHINE. Yep, may sound cheesy here but I guarantee you once you've read the book you may have mentally slapped yourself for even thinking that it was cheesy. A great book will give you characters you will love even if they are supposed to be hateful--- and that was what this book did. It gave me a bunch of characters I LOVE NO MATTER HOW SELF DEPRECIATING THEY MAY GET. But the wisdom imparted by each character was priceless and I think that is what I love the most!


This book fits as a stand alone and i think i would throw a fit if there would be a sequel, not that i don't want to see more of Nastya/Emilia/Sunshine and Josh, it's just that 1 book seems right! And anything more than 1 feels like it's going to be ruined. For me the book was a long read (not long exhausting read, more of long yet enjoyable in so many levels kind of read) and I wish it would've continued more maybe a thousand pages more (although I don't know what more would I have wanted to happen, just that I want to keep on being in their world) that I don't want the story to end but somehow I just know it would and that it has to because it's the right thing to happen and it's one of the things that would make this book just PERFECT.

One thing I'm having a problem with now is..... How the fuck will I find another book that will match the greatness of this one?! I won't use the term awesome this time because I think I reserved such praise for cute books and this book was just 10000 times beyond cute!!! This book was just FUCKING AMAZING. Now really tell me, should I take a hiatus on reading or maybe just totally give it up because I don't think I will get over the amazingness (I know.. I know it's not even a real word) of this one.


Idont know how im going to get down from this high.... I feel lost after finishing this one...



BOTTOMLINE: I DON'T THINK I'M THE SAME PERSON I WAS BEFORE, AFTER READING THIS BOOK. IT. WAS. THAT. MIND-BLOWING. SO PLEASE, JUST READ IT!!!

5 stars and a hundred more if that's possible!!! Review to come!!!!

This book gave my emotions a roller coaster ride!!! A lot of issues were tackled, sometimes it feels like there's too much. One minute I'm smiling, the next my heart is aching... beautifully written! Full review to come once I'm done with my final exams ;)

"But it's hard to leave a place when you're tied to it by fear, when it's broken you with fear, when it's all you've ever known.”

Well this is a nice book! Okay, not really nice nice book because, yeah this was one creepy book but it is an interesting read. I mean at first I was expecting to be creeped out the whole time I was about to read this book only to be disappointed. But the lack of creepiness still makes this book a nice read.

I like Lawrence because he is such a dedicated friend. I love his conviction and bravery. I also like Victoria even if at the first part she was being a snooty, over-achiever, little brat. But I understand why she is the way she was. She is living in a neighborhood where everything seems perfect. She has to live up to her parents' and the community's expectations that's why she has been so uptight. But what made me adore her was her bravery and the fact that she stayed a true and loyal friend to Lawrence. I love her dazzles!!! I bet she looks cute trying to look threatening :))) it makes me smile whenever she'd try to give people her dazzle to scare them away or to take her seriously. Very smart girl indeed and one who is determined and hard to break :) truly in this book we see the true value of friendship and how Vicky's relationship with Lawrence went from a charity case to a unique, valued and special friendship.

Now back to the book, further down the story I didn't think the story would get any creepier. Guess what? It did. I think despite the roaches and Mrs. Cavendish's antics what I found out in the last 40 pages of the book creeped me out the most. You know the movie, Coraline? This has the feel of that movie. Although I must say, Coraline is still 10x weirder. And that ending!! Oh I don't know what to feel about the ending, I guess it's up to our imagination to continue the book. All in all, a great read that will surely give you the creeps! :)

It was okay.... But I need more! And now Ive got my eyes on Warner. Of course we all love the brooding, broken bad boy more than the decent one. So yea, GO WARNER!!!

Finally done reading it! Full review to come... for now, I need my sleep! :P

“I thought you were gone forever,” I said between kisses, not caring that people around us were staring and smiling.

Not-too-heavy read and interesting enough which made me keep reading it. A very straightforward approach in introducing us to the reality of the teenagers' life on the streets. Full review to come!

“If you stay, I’ll do whatever you want. I’ll quit the band, go with you to New York. But if you need me to go away, I’ll do that, too. I was talking to Liz and she said maybe coming back to your old life would just be too painful, that maybe it’d be easier for you to erase us. And that would suck, but I’d do it. I can lose you like that if I don’t lose you today. I’ll let you go. If you stay.”

Okay, so this is my second book of Gayle Forman. I have been a fan ever since the last period I saw on her book Just One Day. And you know what I realized? That her compelling way of writing down her stories made me love the characters and the characters' character. Before I very much loved the idea of traveling. Now reading If I Stay, I came to love music more. I came to love and appreciate music I wasn't even interested into listening before. The way she made her characters express their love for music makes me want to be like them— passionate in music. So much passion that you feel the rawness of their dedication.

One of my favorites may have been Adam's attitude of always trying to do a "grand gesture" for Mia. Ohhh how I'd love to find a guy who would do that for me. Also Adam's mannerism of always warming up Mia's hands are, well, heartwarming :")

My favorite yet the saddest conversation ever:
“I don’t want to be the guy who doesn’t want you to go. If the tables were turned, you’d let me go.”

“I kind of already have. In a way, you’re already gone. To your own Juilliard,” I said.

“I know,” Adam said quietly. “But I’m still here. And I’m still crazy in love with you.”

“Me, too,” I said. And then we stopped talking for a while as Adam strummed an unfamiliar melody. I asked him what he was playing.

“I’m calling it ‘The Girlfriend’s-Going-to-Juilliard-Leaving-My-Punk-Heart-in-Shreds Blues,’” he said, singing the title in an exaggeratedly twangy voice. Then he smiled that goofy shy smile that I felt like came from the truest part of him. “I’m kidding.”

“Good,” I said.

“Sort of,” he added."

I love how Adam has become a part of Mia's family. I've even come to love Willow and Henry from the retellings of Mia's memory. It was like I'm a bystander witnessing a one big happy family made up of kins, family friends, boyfriend.

Some parts were I must admit, boring but nevertheless heartwarming. i got teary-eyed at Adam's words pleading for her to stay. And I think I am just as keeled as Mia about her being an orphan the pain of going through such thing? i can't even imagine. And that ending. Another cliffhanger! Tsk tsk. You naughty writer!!! Good thing I have the second book and now I'm off to dive into it. :P

I badly wanted to give this sequel a 5 but I think a 4 will suffice since it left me with an aching feeling towards the end. I like Tucker a lot for Clara. Why did things have to turn up like that!? :( So frustrated with how this sequel made me feel towards the end. I want my happy ending :(

Mehh. Just forced myself to finish this one. Why do I feel like I'm the only person who disliked this book? I mean... it's not bad but it's not also THAT awesome. Maybe because I took my time while reading it, like putting it off whenever I have more important things to do, that's why I wasn't able to get on with the flow of the story. : Though I wish I could have loved this book more as I was expecting or as much as most of the readers did.. but I guess this book just wasn't for me. : This isn't my cup of tea.

Review to come!! :)